losing weight
Mar. 21st, 2008 02:31 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
winterbadger...is so amazingly hard to do. At least for me. I've been keeping track in my LJ since 2005, and I've been between 265 and 277 the whole time. The notoriously questionable BMI scale says I should be between 145 and 190. I was slender at 185, so I would be happy with 220 or so, but it seems like the Moon to get there, let alone stay there.
I really hate the way I look. Tight clothes NOT good; loose, baggy clothes make one look even bigger. I also know it's unhealthy; I've had one inguinal hernia that I'm pretty sure was indirectly caused by the strain of the extra weight on my abdomen, and I can tell that carrying a lot of extra weight makes my heart rate go higher when I exercise, makes it harder to exercise, and makes me sweat a whole lot more even under mild exertion (which is also icky and embarrassing). I'm sure it affects my breathing and my sleep patterns.
I'm determined to get back to exercising regularly, the way I used to when I lived by myself. What's harder is trying to regulate my diet when I share a lot of meals with someone else. And I know from experience that I may get more fit that way but I still don't lose that much weight. I was working out *hard* a couple of years ago getting lots of running and climbing exercise, and while my wind improved and my muscles were better toned, I lost only a few pounds.
I'm frustrated and not sure what to do.
I really hate the way I look. Tight clothes NOT good; loose, baggy clothes make one look even bigger. I also know it's unhealthy; I've had one inguinal hernia that I'm pretty sure was indirectly caused by the strain of the extra weight on my abdomen, and I can tell that carrying a lot of extra weight makes my heart rate go higher when I exercise, makes it harder to exercise, and makes me sweat a whole lot more even under mild exertion (which is also icky and embarrassing). I'm sure it affects my breathing and my sleep patterns.
I'm determined to get back to exercising regularly, the way I used to when I lived by myself. What's harder is trying to regulate my diet when I share a lot of meals with someone else. And I know from experience that I may get more fit that way but I still don't lose that much weight. I was working out *hard* a couple of years ago getting lots of running and climbing exercise, and while my wind improved and my muscles were better toned, I lost only a few pounds.
I'm frustrated and not sure what to do.
