losing weight

[winterbadger]

...is so amazingly hard to do. At least for me. I've been keeping track in my LJ since 2005, and I've been between 265 and 277 the whole time. The notoriously questionable BMI scale says I should be between 145 and 190. I was slender at 185, so I would be happy with 220 or so, but it seems like the Moon to get there, let alone stay there.

I really hate the way I look. Tight clothes NOT good; loose, baggy clothes make one look even bigger. I also know it's unhealthy; I've had one inguinal hernia that I'm pretty sure was indirectly caused by the strain of the extra weight on my abdomen, and I can tell that carrying a lot of extra weight makes my heart rate go higher when I exercise, makes it harder to exercise, and makes me sweat a whole lot more even under mild exertion (which is also icky and embarrassing). I'm sure it affects my breathing and my sleep patterns.

I'm determined to get back to exercising regularly, the way I used to when I lived by myself. What's harder is trying to regulate my diet when I share a lot of meals with someone else. And I know from experience that I may get more fit that way but I still don't lose that much weight. I was working out *hard* a couple of years ago getting lots of running and climbing exercise, and while my wind improved and my muscles were better toned, I lost only a few pounds.

I'm frustrated and not sure what to do.

Comments

[pusscat.livejournal.com]

Someone once told me diets are like old boyfriends in that once you've left one behind, you can't go back, and it does seem to be inordinately difficult to climb back on any particular wagon once I've fallen off. But I really am quite evangelical about Schwarzbein and have always thought I should do it again and indeed will probably go bck to soemthing quite similar once I've lost all my weight. It really did seem miiraculous to me, the weight came off surprisingly easily (with still having occasional cheats on substantial amounts of posh ice cream) and it's difficult to overstate the difference I felt physically aside from the weight loss. Woke up refreshed every morning, had no headaches at all (coming from someone who has suffered almot daily headaches all her life, this was huge), got through the day with no naps (again, this at a time when I had quite regularly been napping for a couple hours of an afternoon) and I got a truly surprising number of comments from people (who didn't know I was dieting) about how well I was looking, how glowing and healthy my skin, and so forth. Also worked wonders on my hormones, but I don't expect you'd see quite the same effect there! I was even able to come off my meds for a long time with noticeably less severe side effects than I would normally have.

But I will come off the soap box now and just say that I have every, every sympathy to your plight. it's a horrible thing to try and lose weight, and the more you want to lose the harder it is. I feel like I have been on a diet for most of my adult life and never actually been thin. So I really do feel for you and wish you luck and more importantly, motivation. If you discover the secret of that, do let me know. I still haven't got the exercise thing down.

[winterbadger]

Thank you for all the support, J! I really appreciate it! :-)

Getting a good, consistent schedule helps (me, at least) with the exercise. If I get up regularly at the same time, have some time to stretch and then bike (or whatever), I feel better going in to work and I sleep better. But if something throws off my schedule, it's hell getting back to it.