losing weight

[winterbadger]

...is so amazingly hard to do. At least for me. I've been keeping track in my LJ since 2005, and I've been between 265 and 277 the whole time. The notoriously questionable BMI scale says I should be between 145 and 190. I was slender at 185, so I would be happy with 220 or so, but it seems like the Moon to get there, let alone stay there.

I really hate the way I look. Tight clothes NOT good; loose, baggy clothes make one look even bigger. I also know it's unhealthy; I've had one inguinal hernia that I'm pretty sure was indirectly caused by the strain of the extra weight on my abdomen, and I can tell that carrying a lot of extra weight makes my heart rate go higher when I exercise, makes it harder to exercise, and makes me sweat a whole lot more even under mild exertion (which is also icky and embarrassing). I'm sure it affects my breathing and my sleep patterns.

I'm determined to get back to exercising regularly, the way I used to when I lived by myself. What's harder is trying to regulate my diet when I share a lot of meals with someone else. And I know from experience that I may get more fit that way but I still don't lose that much weight. I was working out *hard* a couple of years ago getting lots of running and climbing exercise, and while my wind improved and my muscles were better toned, I lost only a few pounds.

I'm frustrated and not sure what to do.

Comments

[ticktockmary.livejournal.com]

I was working out for months and while I was in better shape, I wasn't losing weight. So I finally got serious about eating right. My goal was to lose 15 pounds by the start of the (MLS) season, but it looks like I'll only hit 8-10. I didn't go on a "diet" per se, just stopped eating crap and tried to remember WWSBD (what would South Beach do). Seems to be working because I haven't changed much else.

It is hard to be good when you're living with someone. c will make some wonderful thing that involves oil and cream (!) and all sorts of bad-for-you but yummy stuff, and it's not like I'm going to say "sorry, I'm on a diet!" I do try to eat smaller portions though.

Would you like a carrot?

[winterbadger]

Ha! Carrots! :-)

Good for you on the 8-10! That's good work. I've managed to do about 5 in one sustained go; it's good when you start, because the positive reinforcement of "hey, it's working" does wonders (at least for me).

The last 5-6 I put on are bad and deflating, but I put them down to stress (desperately wanting *something* comforting and wanting to avoid drink or spending too much money, food can seem like an attractive option or at least the least of evils). One thing that's good about having a log of past efforts is that I know I've been here before and worked my way down.

I *have* to lose some weight before the weather gets hot; ARing two games at the height of last summer nearly did me in--I want to be in better shape before *that* comes around again!